I don't know if this will help you to feel any better, Shirley, but I just
wanted to share.

One of my great aunts was recently diagnosed with breast cancer, and while
talking to my mother about it, this is what she said:

"I'm upset about being sick, yes. But I'm honoured that the Lord has made me
strong--so strong that he feels that I can endure this too."

I wish I could hug you and make it all go away, sweetie.
~Candace~
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